Monday, January 31, 2011
I got the call you never ever want to get after an ultrasound. I have to meet with a geneticist and have a level II ultrasound on Thursday. Apparently the baby has a choroid plexus cyst or cysts on her brain. I guess most babies have these, but they only become a problem if they measure a certain size or bigger and only 1-3% of babies have that. The worst case scenario is that this could indicate trisomy 18, which is generally fatal. I think it can also be marker for regular down syndrome too. However, luckily most the time, about 99% of the time, it's nothing and the cyst(s) go away on their own and the baby is fine. For me, a chronic worrier, this is hard, even with the amazing odds. I've spent time crying and feeling her move and wondering what if.... I hate what ifs. It's almost surreal to feel her move and think that there could be something wrong with her. Something that could take her away from me. But NO! I refuse to think like that! I can't! More likely than not she is perfectly fine! I just have to be positive! I can't ruminate in what ifs. I am going to ask Mark for a blessing and luckily I only have to wait til Thursday for the ultrasound. Hopefully they'll be able to tell me right there and then what's going on. I will lean on my family and my Heavenly Father for support and strength. I know they will give it to me! I will update more on Thursday when I find out more.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Well most likely.
From the get go the technician was having problems getting this kid to stay still long enough to get the pictures she needed for the radiologist. I was in there probably twice as long as I was with Tyler. She told me that every time she tried to take a picture of the head, she shook it. And every time she tried to get a picture of the abdomen she would roll over. Yes, she's a stubborn one. Anyway, after a while she let me go get Mark and my mom. That's when we started the hide and seek game. The baby was rolled up into a ball, with her legs crossed. Could you get more modest? And yet somehow, in that fetal position, she was still able to move away from the ultrasound wand anytime we got close to a decent shot. The technician finally got a few glimpses and said, if she were to guess she would guess girl. I would too from what I saw, which was legs, bum and nothing. Tyler was so much easier! He had those legs spread wide for all to see. The technician was super nice too and went to get another technician to get a second opinion, because I wanted a sure answer. The second technician had a hard time too, but said she got a split second of a good shot and would say girl too. So, most likely, it is a girl.
We also didn't get any good pictures, thanks to her evasion skills. The technician said she couldn't even get a profile shot :( She was front facing or back facing, whatever her preference was at the moment, but she wouldn't turn on her side. The technician even had me turn on my side to try and get her to roll over or move or uncross or SOMETHING! But, no. So unfortunately, I don't have a picture to put on here. But, I was able to see all the limbs, fingers, toes, face, heart, organs, everything! She looks wonderful!
To be honest, it has taken me a while to get used to thinking this is a girl - a real live girl. I was more in shock or disbelief afterward then anything. I was so sure it was a boy that I practically had our life with two boys planned out, so now I have to retrain my mind! Haha! I felt bad that I wasn't bursting with excitement all the way home. But when we got home my mom pulled out a little girl sleeper she had hidden in her suitcase and I almost died from cuteness! The excitement is growing!
As far as names are concerned, we like Clara for a first name. Elizabeth or Elaina for a middle name. So we'll let that sit and see what happens.
Yay for baby girls!!
Friday, January 7, 2011
I made it! I finally had my appointment! And I almost didn't. Yesterday I had a mild yet annoying version of Tyler's stomach flu, so naturally I hardly ate anything all day. The lack of food made me ridiculously light headed and dizzy this morning. So much so that I had to get out of the shower with soapy hair and sit on the floor, head between my knees, dripping wet while Mark got me a banana. Luckily the dizziness abated somewhat and I was able to make the drive. I had a midwife, as my doctor was out of town, but she was very nice. We listened to the heart beat and she said it sounded great! And when I told her I was a little worried about the baby's size since I still look exactly the same and haven't gained an ounce she went and got an ultrasound machine, even though she wasn't planning on it! She did it quickly just to measure so I don't have a picture, but I saw the profile and it was moving! She said it measured just fine and that everything looked great! I measured at 15 weeks 5 days, but she said it was a bit curved so it could be even bigger. Yay!! Next appointment: January 25th the big ultrasound! I can't wait to find out more about out little baby!